Okay, so, this is the first time I have ever admitted in any way, shape, or form to being attracted to guys on the internet or otherwise, so bear with me. I'm a little shy.
Let's get this over with.
I'm bi, but my preference is guys, and I'm tired of being in the closet. I don't care about having a relationship or anything, I just want to stop keeping this secret. Here's the problem: I've apparently put on a very convincing act for being straight. I've never hinted at liking another guy, never stared too long, never even joked about being gay. Even once at a summer camp "bro chill" one of my best friends half-jokingly accused another of my friends about being gay because he never talked to girls. He then turned to me and said "You don't talk to girls either, but I know you're straight." It's true, I don't really talk that much to girls, but that's attributed to my being kind of nerdy, not to any suspicion of a difference in orientation.
Anyway, the guy who said that is one of my best friends (he's also kinda sexy, but I'm pretty confident that he's straight), and I know he won't tell anybody if I come out to him, so I was planning on telling him first. It's just... can anybody tell me for what reason I can't seem to smooth out my nerves and just tell him? Why am I scared like this?
I really... I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess this thread is just a step to confirming to myself the reality which is that I like boys? Is anybody else like this?... Man I'm whining a lot.
Any tips on how to break it to him?
Let's get this over with.
I'm bi, but my preference is guys, and I'm tired of being in the closet. I don't care about having a relationship or anything, I just want to stop keeping this secret. Here's the problem: I've apparently put on a very convincing act for being straight. I've never hinted at liking another guy, never stared too long, never even joked about being gay. Even once at a summer camp "bro chill" one of my best friends half-jokingly accused another of my friends about being gay because he never talked to girls. He then turned to me and said "You don't talk to girls either, but I know you're straight." It's true, I don't really talk that much to girls, but that's attributed to my being kind of nerdy, not to any suspicion of a difference in orientation.
Anyway, the guy who said that is one of my best friends (he's also kinda sexy, but I'm pretty confident that he's straight), and I know he won't tell anybody if I come out to him, so I was planning on telling him first. It's just... can anybody tell me for what reason I can't seem to smooth out my nerves and just tell him? Why am I scared like this?
I really... I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess this thread is just a step to confirming to myself the reality which is that I like boys? Is anybody else like this?... Man I'm whining a lot.
Any tips on how to break it to him?
I'm so uncertain, it's principle.
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"We wear the mask that grins and lies"
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"We wear the mask that grins and lies"