Hello.
I am having recurring thoughts of suicide. It all started when I entered middle school and kept building off from there. I was always the kid who nobody accepted; I was just different. I didn't know how to interact with people, I didn't play sports, and when I did try to socialize, they would just make fun of me.
I am in high school now. I know you're probally going to say, "school will be over soon", but it's not just that. They've destroyed my life, my self-esteem, and everything about me. If you get a reputation in middle school, it will keep growing. There's no way to change it. Even the kids who are bullied themselves pick on me.
It's not physical bullying; it's mental. They go up to me and say, "Hey, what's up!" You know, just trying to be sarcastic and act like they're my friends. They say sarcastic things like, "Don't worry, I respect gay pride". First of all, I'm not gay. Everyone just thinks that.
I have no friends, I'm not going to get into a college because of my grades and I don't know what to do.
I can't laugh anymore, I can't even smile. They've abused me so much my sense of humor is gone. Any joke just relates to my pain. I can fake laughing or smiling for a picture, but I haven't really in months.
Help.
I am having recurring thoughts of suicide. It all started when I entered middle school and kept building off from there. I was always the kid who nobody accepted; I was just different. I didn't know how to interact with people, I didn't play sports, and when I did try to socialize, they would just make fun of me.
I am in high school now. I know you're probally going to say, "school will be over soon", but it's not just that. They've destroyed my life, my self-esteem, and everything about me. If you get a reputation in middle school, it will keep growing. There's no way to change it. Even the kids who are bullied themselves pick on me.
It's not physical bullying; it's mental. They go up to me and say, "Hey, what's up!" You know, just trying to be sarcastic and act like they're my friends. They say sarcastic things like, "Don't worry, I respect gay pride". First of all, I'm not gay. Everyone just thinks that.
I have no friends, I'm not going to get into a college because of my grades and I don't know what to do.
I can't laugh anymore, I can't even smile. They've abused me so much my sense of humor is gone. Any joke just relates to my pain. I can fake laughing or smiling for a picture, but I haven't really in months.
Help.